Hopeless

As the dark mist grows impenetrable
and the moon becomes aflame
with the pain from inside
Black angels call my name
to persuade me back to the infernal region
that I have tried so long to escape.
Tottering on the edge of devastation
I cannot contain the sensations
of the need to give up.
All the anguish and loathing
are far more than I can bear.
It's time for it to end
As I have waited long enough.
I came to this place to get away
from where I was
But it's no better here,
it's almost worse, and by far,
it's at least the same.
Standing on the brink of destruction,
I sigh as the tears stain the planet
with the anguish I have experienced once again.
The cavernous hole in my heart
leaves me knowing that I would rather
feel nothing at all
than to be where I am right now.
Deep, dark depression comes forth
and swallows my soul
and I have no more strength to fight it.
I cannot nor do I want to live like this anymore...
and I fear I won't be around much longer.
This time it won't let up
and I feel no better as I write these words.
This time it's different, stronger, to strong in fact
and all I want to do is sleep my life away
or have no life at all.
I just don't want to be here anymore
in a world that has been so cruel and unrelenting.
The gallows I spoke of in Misery,
The Ledge, The Red Brick Road are all to vivid.
The dark shadow of the grim reaper
stands before me,
with his arm upon my shoulder once again
and I do not fear him.